a life not yet lived...

It is so surreal to think that life as we know it now is about to change on Monday...is currently changing actually. I feel as if I am on a page trying to peek over to the next page to see what it will be like. I can't see it because its not yet lived and I can't picture it. How will our daily routine go? How far will the grocery store be? Are they nice there or do they run over you with their carts? How long will it take before it all looks familiar and settles into the new "normal"? How hard will the city be to navigate? {HARD I hear!} Will hubby love his program as much as he hopes? All questions that rumble through my mind and don't have an answer yet.

This move makes me somehow feels a little more nervous than the last. Only because I was so naive and truly clueless to all the changes when we moved to Cleveland. I had no experience to know what living in a new city was like. I had never lived in an apartment before much less shared my room with a boy. I was unaware of what it would be like to find a job in a city with NO contacts or friends. I had no idea what it meant to be the wife of a medical student. I had no recollection of what a true winter would entail. I was unsure about daily life 19 hours from our families ...but God filled in all the blanks and uncertainties. He truly took care of us...very good care of us. I have no doubt He will do the same with this move...this new chapter.

It is an amazing feeling to know that God is in the driver's seat. To have no idea where you're going, but to just KNOW that its the direction you were called for...tis what faith is all about! I suppose I will just have to keep packing...tossing our belongings into boxes and wishing for even more bubble wrap...and wait until the page turns on Monday.